Shocking Proof of Me Looking Normal Way back in the day-I was 19 trying to get clean and blond! Even in a town called Normal I was still rocking the punk look. This has to do with this entry.
This Blog is really an Online scrapbook for my friends, it will rarely talk about work unless I am massively jazzed about a job. It will have lots of photos and videos and even has a photobucket account for my real friends to follow the online scrap book. But you have to be my real life friend to get the password to view it. I told a few friends I was going to make the scarp books so they can see what my day to day life is like, the slings and arrows of having duel citizenship currently living in the states, always being the odd one out, yet a mum figure to all. I will post this in DMs on twitter to my real mates, if you are just passing by and found this site most of it will not register do to the fact that this blog is directed to my mates. Please set up a blogger account so you can follow so I know you are all reading this or I will say sod it and stop.
So currently I am enjoying the last few days of my mohawk. I have a mate who is about 250lbs. When I met her she was this wannabe Boho-Hippie type and I thought she was a man in drag with the Divine like eye make up and over the top clothing, no chest or hips, but do to the fact that I do drag king work and have a lot of drag king and drag queen friends I was cool with that. At the time she has colored red hair, even though she is a natural ginger, it was this dark purple red in the back with ice blonde in the front, she said it make her look like rouge in x-men, but rouge never drew on drag queen black eyebrows and did her make up like Ziggy Stardust. She come from an amazingly rich family, something I know nothing about. She and I only started talking when she was outside alone smoking, not inhaling but smoking Virgina Slims, she was sitting on a child's playground set that looked tiny under her then almost 400 pound frame. I was blond, long hair, I looked horror of horror normal-ish in a black leather pencil skirt black fishnet, tall combats boots, a pink sloppy seconds shirt, and leather jacket, smoking a camel wides looking at a woman who looked like a man in jeans that already were bell bottoms that she had cut up the sides and but brown leather lacing through to make them larger, mind you it was winter. She had on this large men's over coat that had pink rubber gloves through the straps at the top of the shoulders, she has the hippy generic flowers ironed onto this large men's over coat that was paper thin, and a young ones shirt on. No one talked to her in class, she was in my art class and was amazingly talented but got bored and quit, my art teacher asked me to tell her to come pick up her portfolio, that had in runes a curse upon anyone that touched it, I read the curse, and the day she was sitting alone I walked up to her and said "You were in my art class, Benny the teacher he wants you to come get your portfolio, I was going to bring it to you but, you have a curse on it." I sighed and said "Let me guess mommy and daddy didn't buy you a pony, you watched the Craft and think you are magick" she turned to look at me taking of her Elton John like sun glasses that was when noticed her shirt, she started telling me that she was a witch, and how her parents are rich and she did have horses as a child I stopped her and said "The Young Ones, ha! I love Rik Mayall, have you been to the website everythingenglish.com I have no clue if it is still running but they have some cool Young Ones stuff." After I mentioned the young ones she changed she started talking to me and my friend Alley in class, when she used to keep to herself. Alley used to drive me to Drama class everyday and when her car broke down I would stand outside and wait with her for her ride, knowing my ride was waiting or me. Our new found friend would wait with us. She would always talk about how she was so fat and Alley who was like a twig would glare at her knowing that the hippy was fishing. That day I made a gift for Alley, she had a massive crush on Elijah Wood, so I got a bottle cap, put some modge podge, cork, a small picture of Elijah Wood ran a ball chain under the cork when it set I sealed it and but it in a box. While waiting for Alley's ride to come get her I gave her the necklace she was so happy then our new found friend said "Oh god, can I see that" she studied the picture of Elijah wood and said "You know my friends Seth looks just like him." Alley without thinking said "Really is he single" When I could tell our new Hippy friend clearly had a crush on Seth.
Months passed Alley and I would get a ride to Drama with out new hippy friend, our new hippy friend would always want to hang out with us and run lines, even though she didn't take the class seriously and hardly showed up. At night she would swing by and we would talk, she had no clue about any band I mentioned, so I would play her records, she started telling people Molotov Cocktail is my favorite band, even though she had never seen a show, owned an album, ect. Then she started coloring her hair Orange, by the way it is still ORANGE. She saw my patches on my clothes and asked what they meant and why I wore them, I would explain, that a patch was for Sam in Sam we Trust he started Plan-It X Records, then I pointed to that patch, I would tell her about Sam, who was a dear friend, and say, well Operation Cliffclaven and amazing band, then point at the patch is on plan it x, and this patch means that I am anti-nazi, and this one is from NYC when I was a squatter punk and living on the streets, spanging and drinking all damn day. Then she would start making patches, not political patches, not silk screen, she made then by printing them off on a transfer on her computer of porn, lots of shock value and I explained, I am a political punk and wearing patches just to wear patches seemed so Hot Topic, she had no clue who the band on her t-shirt was, but FUCK she got it from Hot Topic so they had to be cool! I had to tell her what was what all the time.
If I put studs on my clothes she did, If I colored my hair blue she said she always wanted BLUE HAIR AND I HAD TO CHANGE IT! This went on for ages. She seemed to adapt the personality of the person she thought was cool then make everything into a contest. I moved away and we still talked she would come visit and I would go visit her, when we were away from each other she would "find herself" and be a hippy, that's cool be a hippy I don't care, I know who I am and I'm not good on you, you worked out you are a hippy. Then she started to get interested in eating fire I had told her about how I grew up in the circus and sideshow in the past many times but no joke if the girl is in a car and blinks she will freak out and ask where we are. All of the bad blood, like me dating Seth, being engaged to him is being left out because all of this has to do with one point and one point only, it is a long story but stay with me.
She repeatedly told me that I was not a circus baby or in the sideshow, that I didn't have duel citizenship, ect, I have proven these thing to her many times, but she has to make it into a contest every time. We foolishly got the bright idea to do self made freak acts together, forgetting that I can work with a friend and if they say something about how I am acting at work-that is about work not a jab at me in our friendship, she could not. I left for a while to work with other people and teach what my grand father taught me, and I told her before, we shouldn't work together she can't get what is work and what is us as friends. So when I came back she RE DUMPPED ME, this idea completely fucks me up, I said we are not working together I ended it and a later you have to dump me when it is already over. At this point she was learning belly dance and she had never been interested in it before, I am a trained dancer, I am a professional so I would offer her advise and she wouldn't take it and insist that I copied her even though I have been dancing scene I was 5 years old. If I lost weight she want on a crazy diet and if I gained weight she would call me fat, ect...I will say that she was really there for me when I had cancer. But our friendship has always been me being me happy with who I am scars and all and her making it into a contest.
So my hair is in a mohawk with carvings in the side, it has nothing to do with fashion has everything to do with my blood. I am apart of the MOHAWK TRIBE the hair cut and the carvings in my hair have meaning, so does the blood red coloring, that was a part of a name I was givin by my family who are SUE and live on the reservation. It is not fashion it is culture, but people started carving there head like mine the mohawk has a shape to it that is not like a normal mohawk and my friend Jacob copied it he thought it was pink as fuck. But she always says, I have to stay in cool tones do to RED being HER COLOR, her hair is fucking colored ORANGE! So I ignore her like always you can not claim a color and say it is all yours. But other people keep using MOWHAWK NATIVE AMERICAN CARVINGS in there hair friends of mine they think it's punk, so I thought fuck this, I will cut it off and color my hair and then maybe in a year or something I will shave it into a fin hawk and a chelsea. I told her that and she said is it going to be red? I said I don't know yet. Then she said it can't be like her hair color. SHE HAS HAIR DOWN TO HER ASS IT IS ORANGE AND SHE HAS A GLAM ROCK MULLET MY HAIR IS NOTHING LIKE HERS! She insisted that I only sick to cool tones again I ignore her and say Yes we are like fucking book ends, joking do to the fact we look nothing alike! But she is doing the punk thing again and now I am going to have to deal with the oneuping non fucking stop.
So it is not like I am giving up my punk patches the music I like, say fuck my politics-hell no, I am just cutting my hair off coloring it and going to wear some more girly clothing from time to time. What the fell is wrong with people if you can claim a color and say you and only you can use it then I am naming myself the queen of the sideshow, the goddess of self made freak and the saint of the circus. I know I am not but for crying out loud why do people feel the need to be competitive in friendships?